I wake up swearing I’ll be better,
Then I watch myself become the storm.
You say one thing, I make it something
That you never meant at all.

And I can see it in your eyes now,
You’re scared of getting it all wrong.
I wish I knew what I was fighting,
I wish I knew what’s going on.

And I hate that I expect you
To know what I can’t explain.
I hand you all my broken pieces
Then get angry when you can’t fix the pain.

There’s something in me I can’t control,
It takes the wheel and I lose my soul.
I hurt the one who loves me most,
Then cry because I’m scared to be alone.

And you keep saying it’s your fault,
Like you could save me if you tried enough.
But baby, we’re breaking, can’t you see?
You’re losing yourself trying to love me.

I know the way you look at me,
Like I’m still worth the fight.
But how much longer can you hold me
When I’m the reason you don’t sleep at night?

And I won’t hate you if you leave me,
I won’t say you didn’t try.
You gave me more than I could ask for,
And I still don’t know what’s wrong inside.

I wish love was all it took,
I wish I knew how to be good.
You don’t deserve to feel this helpless,
And I don’t know how to stop this.

There’s something in me I can’t control,
And I’m so scared of what we’ll both become.
I love you, God, I love you so,
But love can’t heal what I don’t know.

So if one day you let me go,
I’ll understand, though it’ll hurt like hell.
You were never meant to save me,
And I’m sorry I made you feel
Like you had to save yourself.

I know you love me.
I just don’t know
How long before
I break us both.